糖果

     第一遍看，很唯美。有关爱，沉溺，放纵，青春，责任。。。人生如初见，candy和的初遇，透明而梦幻，唯美的令人窒息。年轻而健康的性爱，充满着爆发的激情，然而天堂和地域亦不过是一瞬间而已。混乱，暴力，疯狂，咒骂。他们都没有错，错的是年轻的心根本承受不住生活和责任的磨练。
   人生若只如初见，何是秋风悲画扇。画面最后，当终于拒绝candy,动容亦不过如此。最真挚的爱，就是舍得放手，然后让你幸福。既然我给不了，那就放你自由

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her,
oh Danny boy.
Thousands of birds,
the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.

One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.

Danny the daredevil.

Candy went missing.

The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business. This, is what we’re after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I’ll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.

Friday — I didn’t mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.

- Candy





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电影的开始有一个熟悉的场景，Heath Ledger饰演的Dan带着他爱的女孩Candy走进了游乐场的转轮，两个成年人在一群孩子中间十分的抢眼，而Geoffrey Rush饰演的Casper站在转轮之上微笑的注视着他们，转轮开始旋转，一开始很慢，Dan和Candy笑着，紧紧的相牵，转轮越转越快，像一张流出歌声的唱片，Dan亲吻着Candy，旋转的世界里，仿佛只剩下了他们两个。

我看电影的时候总会走神，恍惚中仿佛时光重现，眼前的影像开始变得黑白，很多年前那个叫安东的巴黎少年，他聪明漂亮敏感，可是他的父亲离开了他，他的母亲和另外的男人混迹在一起，他在学校嘲弄老师，他和唯一的好友一起逃课，他在游乐场进入了那个转轮，越转越快，他笑着，好像他是静止的，整个世界都在围绕着他旋转。

Candy也许真的是有双重的含义，她是他爱上的女孩，她是让他们两个人一起沉沦的海洛因。他们的爱情一开始就是和海洛因连在一起，Candy吸毒过量，而Dan用另一针的海洛因让她醒了过来。Candy有一个丰裕的家庭，只是过分溺爱她的父亲，控制欲超强的母亲，把她所有的天赋梦想和虚无盲目的爱情埋葬在海洛因的幻境里；Dan的家庭没有提及，而Casper则像是他精神上的父亲，他盲目的相信他的一切，甚至带着Candy和他一起注射高浓度的吗啡，那大概是他们第一次的毒品体验，然后他们就再也离不开这种Candy了；Casper是个有身份的医生，却也是一个暗地的毒品贩子，他利用吗啡招来来他家里和他乱搞的男孩们，也和他们一起陷入其中，他对Dan有着特殊的感情，从他看他的眼神中就能够感觉得到，最后在眼睁睁看着Dan和Candy进入绝境之后，他平静的overdose反倒像是一次解脱般的自杀。

就这样看着他们chase the dragon，从最开始那虚幻的Heaven一步步开始下坠，到Earth，最终来到Hell。或者痛苦，或者享受，或者无法自拔，那种挣扎撕心裂肺，而宿名都像是被安排好了。也许drugs真的能激发那些艺术灵感，那些让我们沉溺的音乐、画作都是极度眩晕之后的产物，可是他们到底得到了什么，快乐还有折磨？只是这其实也许就是生活的真相。

电影的高潮在Candy写在墙上写满房间里的那个疯狂的真实的故事里，我突然想到我在焦躁的时候也会抓起笔写每个在脑海里出现的无规则的词语、句子，那种感情很真实，同样也很绝望。所以后来Dan含着泪拒绝了Candy，两个Candy是一体的，纵使他有着多么爱她，这爱的化学反应却让他永远也戒不掉另一个Candy。爱的瘾，drug的瘾，快乐的瘾，折磨的瘾，to be addicted or not，还有什么区别？

Note：澳大利亚的独立电影，根据Luke Davies的小说改编，参选了今年的柏林电影节和多伦多国际电影节，Heath Ledger和Abbie Cornish很真实的饰演了一对junkie lovers，而Geoffrey Rush的角色更是对他的毒瘾有着哲学上的解释，更有评论说Abbie Cornish会是下一个Nicole Kidman和Naomi Watts。D版商们翻译的名字是“爱情毒针”，还不错，只是每一个无法摆脱的诱惑，都是毒针。

糖果的颜色总是多变的。可口的吮吸，诱人的味道总是让人迷惑留恋。割舍不掉糖果融化在口中甜美的味道。即使完全化为乌有，至少曾经含在口中的丝丝幸福还是难以忘怀。

      Candy影片中的希斯操着浓郁的澳洲口音，说话时仿佛口中就含有块指尖大的糖豆。影片开始在幸福的转盘中开始了两个人的故事，他们的爱很甜美，也很痛苦。幸福快乐总是那么简单，不论是什么方式，偷车也好，诈骗也罢。只要能搞到钱，搞到嗑药。就能在二人世界中臆想天伦之乐。这样的幸福就像转盘的转动总是短暂停留。

社会的万能之手是不会放过每一个生活在其中的人们，道德，家庭，信仰，责任。总是无时不刻考究着每一个生活在其中的人们。于是，这就成了他们甜蜜的负缀。爱不再是那么的简单单。

 

      影片中希斯在淡蓝色的泳池里游泳，与爱人缠绵。时间仿佛静止般美好。嗑药后的性能使他们忘记一切的烦恼。生活在现实中的我们何尝不想逃避。但是负缀总会在美好过后将他们拉回来，没有正式的工作，没有钱供养家庭，日日为衣食苦恼，穷竭似乎要把灵魂从躯体中逼出。一切的一切注定，这样的爱困难重重。

      希斯还是那么的爱candy，拼了一切的爱。可是还是无法挽回毒品对生理带来的恶果。伴着candy的流产，生活的希望就此永久的破没了。碌碌无为的度日，已不再是隔世桃园般的美好，理想与不能，社会的逼迫，痛苦与压抑充斥着彼此。

      家里的每一处房间，每一个墙壁，都成为了怨念的宿怨。

      candy,在墙壁的每一句话都是一把把利剑，直直的插在希斯的心中。活活的杀死了一颗满爱的心。

 

      分别后在餐馆的偶然相见，似乎彼此回归正常生活后能在从心开始。但此时，希斯抑郁已久的过往记忆如决堤的大坝，瞬间迸发。一个男人，泪水就这样无助的在伤过自己的女人面前留下。他还是深爱着她，还是爱得灵魂消散，凝神对望彼此后很久很久，sorry,I can't back.因为爱的太深已经再难以拾起过往。

      Candy依然是美的那么美妙，动心，糖果依然是甜美的耐人寻味，但是爱＋甜的等式左后并不是天堂。所以 ，偶尔含糖，是美好的回忆，时时含糖，却是蛀牙满口的后果。

      糖果的色彩依旧，不禁诱人，还能腻人。。。

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, my Danny boy.
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome, and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.Danny, the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
"I wanna try your way this time."
You came into my life really fast, and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender.
Then there was a gap in things, and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business. This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked.
Sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
I broke your head on the back of the bed.... the baby died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little gal....
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her...
oh Danny boy....
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.
Danny the daredevil.
Candy went missing.
The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business.
This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed.
My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
 I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god.
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum."


那些回忆 变成美妙的词语
变成五彩的文字出现在那个乱七八糟的家
Dan奋力的擦 却始终抹不去他们的痕迹

到那时我才发现candy确实是艺术家