小大人2016

我们曾渴望过这样的感觉 我们曾拥有过这样的感觉 我们曾遗忘过这样的感觉 我们曾怀念过这样的感觉 那种感觉，一份缘一恍邂 重拾不起，一酿成醋一惚生涩 就这样，暮年响门，我们再度相逢 你好，我好，只叹那一段岁月不曾静好。。。

羁绊是美好的，也是痛苦的，但是不要害怕，因为这就是生活，杜绝这一切，剩下的只是生存，与行尸无异，同走肉无疑。生命只有一次，别在它结束前，活得像它结束后。

想起来小学时候玩的最好的朋友LB，一个特别有绘画天赋的女孩子，笑起来甜甜的肉肉的，她是我至今见过最有绘画灵气的姑娘，以至于那个时候我会照着她的画临摹。任何东西在她的画笔下仿佛都充满生命，信手拈来。仿佛她就是为绘画而生。

那时候我每周都会去她家玩，一起看漫画书一起上绘画课，她会把每期《漫友》的海报留给我，借给我她最爱的杂志。要知道那时候一张《漫友》的海报对小学生来说有多珍贵。我们会在课堂上偷偷传纸条，课间厮混在一起，就连放学后也会用家里的座机给彼此打电话聊天。分享各种有意思的心事和秘密，连老师后来都找到我们的家长说我俩太爱粘着，耽误学习。然而我对她的记忆就只停留在那个时候。

高中虽然两人在一个学校，但是却不经常来往，她的性格也变得没有从前活泼，我也有了其他好朋友。两个人不知道为什么就渐渐疏远开来。没有过争吵没有过分歧。我一直觉得是因为她去了不喜欢的初中所以性格变得不爱交谈。起初我们还会打电话彼此问候，可再后来就断了联络。

再后来大学假期两人约见过一次，说来奇怪，记得清儿时一起玩耍的细节，却记不得最近一次见面的事情。想不起来两人见面干了什么聊了什么。似乎是一起吃了冰淇淋和甜品，我还开玩笑说她怎么瘦了那么多。然而那次见面结束后我内心似乎就知道了那是我们最后一次见面了。

所以当看到最后美术馆里Jack 望着Tony 的背影却没有去say hi的时候我想Jack 也是知道两人的缘分至此，各有各的生活，再亲密无间都只是存活在过去的影子。看似Jack 在地上平静的画画，其实内心早已把他和Tony以前的日子像放电影一样的放了一遍又一遍吧。就如自己知道的，有些人的进度条在你生命里走完了就是走完了。

我觉得Tony是个gay，看了Q&A没想到是真的，看片的时候一直在YY一个gay男孩爱上了自己异性恋朋友的悲剧。看到父母们不算激烈的撕逼，一直想告诉那两个男孩一声。没想到最后Jacob会轻易地原谅父母，或许他本身性格就是温柔体贴的，如果是我，估计会很久不和父母说话。不过两人最后逐渐生疏倒是预料到了，成长的过程就是不断遇到新的人，建立新的关系，然后和很多以前的朋友渐行渐远，伤感但这也许就是人生。

关于电影《小小人》little men

也许我们曾经怦然心动，也许释然了…

青春期的无可奈何，失落和焦虑

在现实迅速的成长中只剩下微微一笑……

只看过Ira Sachs的爱很怪，当时被电影里满溢的生活感迷住，安静朴素的的琐碎生活，感情柔软绵长，被两个老爷子的爱情所感动…小小人和爱很怪的风格是一致的，依旧缓慢的将一些微小的情愫串联起来，矛盾和冲突都给予足够的缓冲，很多时候，电影呈现的生活化让我觉得自己像一个电影中没有入镜的老邻居，沉默的注视着这两家人的喜怒哀乐，当jacob玩着直排轮经过小公园，那阵午后的微风混杂着阳光和泥土的味道，轻抚过我的脸，仿佛jacob刚刚经过我的身边旁，我捕捉到了他和tony的相视一笑……

故事关乎于两家人，敏感内敛的艺术小天才jacob有着一个郁郁不得志的演员父亲和一个忙碌持家的心理医生母亲，叛逆洒脱热爱表演的tony那未露面的父亲也许在非洲拼命的工作着，阴郁焦虑的母亲经营着并不景气的服装店…两家人因为jacob爷爷的去世而联系到一起，jacob的父亲成为了tony家新的房东。两个男孩暧昧的友谊火速升温成为了最要好的朋友。此时，双方家长因为实际的经济利益产生矛盾，期间父母和孩子的矛盾爆发，经历了短暂的焦灼和反抗后，两个男孩随父母的决定就此分开，也许再遇见也只是远远的注视…

tony和表演老师练习解放天性的那场戏特别有趣，现场的所有学生以及表演老师都是本色出演，特别真实，不禁想起了我大学上表演课时的各种撒泼卖丑，就这么疯得自得其乐。

导演Q&A中，最后关于片名Little Men, 导演说其实是指每一个角色。

题外话，jacob和tony两个人的面相模样神似emma和小evan（这对貌似订婚，可怜的小快银哈）,我默默在心里期待了好久cp！

Checking out of the genderqueer bracket, American indie urban aesthete Ira Sachs’ LITTLE MEN continues with his concern of Brooklyn’s gentrification, in LOVE IS STRANGE (2014), a senior gay couple cannot afford their apartment and has to live separately, a temporary arrangement eventually plunges into a precipitate farewell, here, it centers around a nuclear family, Brian Jardine (Kinnear), a seasoned thespian struggling to pay the bills, his wife Kathy (Ehle), a full-time psychotherapist, and their 13-year-old son Jake (Taplitz), move into Brian’s father’s two-story building, inherited after the latter’s death. They have a tenant, the Chilean immigrant Leonor Calvelli (García), a single mother who operates an artisanal dress shop in the ground floor, by dint of a very low monthly rent arranged between her and Brian’s father for many years.

Brian and his sister Audrey (Balsam), both need money to support their families, revises a new lease demanding a treble amount of fee (still, considerably cheaper than the ballooning market price), which builds a tension between the two families, and what is also at cost is the newfound friendship between Jake and his coeval Tony (Barbieri), Leonor’s son, when their quotidian proximity is discontinued.

More than anything, the two kid actors are phenomenal, both first-time actors, Theo Taplitz remarkably imbues an adorable appearance of sensitivity and androgyny to accentuate Jake’s painter’s disposition, not to mention his heart-rending plea in the climax. Whereas Michael Barbieri is totally on the opposite of the spectrum, with his convivial, animated verve and a naturalistic elocution that betrays his age, which is fit as glove as Tony’s aspiring actor identity. Their friendship seems very organic, albeit their polarized make-ups, mercifully and perspicaciously Sachs doesn’t make a heavy weather of Jake’s budding affection towards Tony, which is tacitly suggested but as in reality, like as not, those little torch-carrying secret is mostly saved for its originator to savor and wallow, bless Sachs for not sensationalize a young boy’s vulnerable, inchoate sexual awakening.

Grownups are also a cracking cluster, almost 20 years after his Oscar-nominated breakthrough in AS GOOD AS IT GETS (1997), Greg Kinnear matures with an understated complexity that is given a full range here, he is a grieving son, a frustrating breadwinner, a glowing actor on stage, a devoted, grateful husband and a caring father, who is saddled with a daunting task to negotiate an unpleasant business deal with a tough-nut in the form of a magnificent Paulina García, nothing is above her Leonor to get what she intends, emotional manipulation, outright humiliation, tactical evasion, even if a child’s innocent, heartfelt plea can do the trick, she has no qualms about leveraging it. García has so many strings to her bow, and each one adds a tangible layer to her character’s humanity, warts and all, which is such an exceptional achievement that defiantly flouts the atrocious typecast of a downtrodden immigrant woman struggling in the land of freedom, here, she fervently digs in her heels and brazens it out in fighting a losing battle.

Sending out a well-meaning message of “letting go the past”, Sachs’ LITTLE MEN is the whole package, a school of hard knocks for an adolescent, a critical looking into the miasma of gentrification and a hyperreal examination of ordinary beings’ interrelations.

referential entries: Sachs’ LOVE IS STRANGE (2014, 7.8/10), KEEP THE LIGHTS ON (2012, 6.8/10).